You may recall my blog from last week…Life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, well this is kind of an extension of that sharing. In case you missed it, here is the link…
https://kyliescourage.wordpress.com/2017/10/08/i-made-a-promise-to-myself/
A couple of weeks ago, sitting at this cute little organic cafe at Samford, having just eaten a mouth-watering lunch (equally drooling picture below) left my tastebuds dancing…you know that kinda feeling that your body is giving you a hug saying a big ‘THANK YOU’.
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Quinoa
Sweet Potato
Chickpeas
Mushroom
Sprouts, fresh lime and more…you get the picture!!
By this stage, my insides are shining and so is the sun. Que…mobile phone rings. For the purpose of this story, I’ll get to the point. It’s Lorna Jane’s office inviting me to speak at their Active Nation Day event that weekend. I thank Tahlia, hang up the phone, 3 words – Thank You World. Feeling = grateful, delighted.
And then, in the blink of an eye, my inner voice says ‘Holy Crap’…and then the negativity starts – what are you going to say, you haven’t done a public speaking gig in a while, time to prepare, what to wear…I paused, breathed, looked out to the sunshine and said ‘STOP’. You will be fine, you’ve got this! #believe
If you follow my blog or take a browse across any of my social media, I’m certain you will feel my energy of respect, belief and appreciation of Lorna, the beautiful lady herself (authentic comes to mind) AND her activewear brand.
I used to ‘write’ all my public speaking, like right down to a smile. I learned early on, that whilst it’s great to be prepared for the audience, to know your stuff, to engage, to laugh and so on, to do all that you need to be authentic and that’s when I stopped writing every last word.
Now, I write a few key words (you know, like as a memory jog) and I roll with, connecting with the audience, myself and the occasion. So, that Saturday afternoon I grabbed a notebook and pen and logically thought through what I could share with a few hundred women from my 6 + year health journey…to inspire and empower – to connect and to be real.
I said ‘this is your opportunity to use your voice Kylie’ …a quick mental image of just why I formed Kylies Courage.
You see I love public speaking. For me, it’s a platform to share and reach as many people as I can…to inspire, to educate and empower. Ultimately spreading awareness of living a greater life…of health, of reaching your potential, of being the very best version of ourselves possible, to embrace growth, learning, self love, green smoothies or warm ginger tea.
You see, I last spoke at a conference a couple of years ago now, which left me frightened and in a situation where I lost my voice after an incident with 2 very drunk men threatened my personal safety. Thank goodness a lady intervened. It rocked me, threw me to the curb, shook me up and in terms of public speaking left me feeling without my voice!
![TBSD Conference - Kylie Sharing](https://kyliescourage.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/10/tbsd-conference-kylie-sharing-e1508040207184.jpg?w=300&h=236)
At the time, little did I know that this night and my journey of public speaking would take me through the lessons, the tears, the pain, the why and all the highs and lows AND be possibly one of my biggest life lessons.
For me, public speaking has been a huge journey.
That incident with those men bought up every little piece of the ugly, confusing and frightening abuse I suffered as a child. To the point, I withdrew, started putting on weight, suffered throat issues, lost all energy, my skin had rashes and on goes the list of challenges.
There were times when I honestly thought that mentally I was losing it!! I actually felt like screaming at times. I felt ashamed that I founded Kylies Courage from my amazing health journey and yet I found myself in such poor health. Not to mention the shame that I felt surrounding the abuse. The abuse that I had been told to tuck away so quietly and deeply for sooo long. The strain of that became so heavy to carry, too heavy.
I even withdrew from seeing my Kinesiologist who had helped me so much along my journey. He had helped me achieve some really great stuff – with my health and my life. Ironically it was a chat with him, one day, in a moment of bravery that helped me onto my path of healing. Now, that’s a whole other story for another day.
Though, as I continue on these new chapters of my journey of life…
- Of healing
- Trying to understand
- Releasing those deep emotions
- Practicing self love
- Regaining my energy, and
- Fine tuning my nourishment
I paused to reflect on the Sunday of Active Nation Day, after what was a beautiful morning of celebration, health, hugs, chats, kindness and more. I felt an immense, deep gratitude for the gift I had been given…I had my voice again. To engage in public speaking and to share the story of Kylies Courage.
And yes, my presentation went great, we laughed, we sweated, shared and hopefully empowered a whole group of women to greater health and life. I hardly even looked at my notes!!
Active Nation Day 2017 gifted me the lessons of…
- Self Love
- Women supporting and encouraging women
- No judgements
- No comparing
- Kindness
- My voice…we all have a voice!
![Active Nation Day 2017 - LJ Love You Sign](https://kyliescourage.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/10/active-nation-day-2017-lj-love-you-sign.jpg?w=300&h=225)
Since THAT night, I have learned to really embrace these 3 things. They have served and supported me (along with loved ones) through what’s been some of the toughest, darkest times – in life and certainly since beginning my health journey 6+ years ago, and they are…
- Never give up
- Believe in you
- Self love
And, Be Courageous…cause sometimes you’re gonna need to get a bit gutsy!
At the time, Lorna Jane’s office actually had no idea of just how significant their invitation was for me to share my journey with those at Active Nation Day. One thing is for sure, it is a gesture of kindness that I will always remember. And another significant milestone in my health journey. Kindness spreads Kindness xx.
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